My friend Michael taught me to say in my prayers "what honors God, what honors others, and what honors me."
Today I woke up struggling with a situation and I was contemplating those words in prayer. I'm torn because what appears to honor the other person feels like a burden of obligation to me and therefore is not honoring of my feelings. So I continue to ponder the words "honor God, honor others, and honor me."
Yes, I should put honoring God above others and myself, but do I also put honoring others above honoring myself? At this point I'm really struggling with that idea. I spent too much time in my past putting others before me. And I grew to resent that and was too much of a people pleaser. I was not authentic. I was not myself. And so now I'm trying to find a balance between honoring others and honoring myself.
I spent some more time in prayer asking God to help me find balance in this situation, find a way to honor all involved, and give me a new perspective.
This evening I no longer feel burdened or obligated, but a peace when I think of doing what would honor the other person. Prayer changed me.